Another question: do any of you struggle with feeling guilty about taking time off from work under fmla to recover from your asthma flares? Or otherwise inconveniencing people who have to cover for you in your absence? This was my first asthma hospitalization and it scared the crap out of me. I went to the ED intent on getting methylpred and running away straight back home. But realized things were different when my heart rate was out of control and the labs came back showing dehydration, hyponatremia etc. It’s a lung problem for pete’s sakes … how do you kill someone quick, fast and in a hurry? Go for the lungs or heart. I’m trying to think of similar situations for other chronic conditions (maybe a heart attack, renal injury, small bowel obstruction, crohns flare). One wouldn’t expect those guys to discharge from hospital and be at work the next day. Why should asthma be different? Maybe it’s because I’ve grown used to having albuterol, Flovent, prednisone and advair in my life and my disease had been well controlled/contained to this point … that I’m not more alarmed about how scary last week was, and feel ashamed asking for 14 days to heal. It doesn’t help my work is dumb and keeps bugging me about forms, certifications and date of return (I faxed all that stuff from my hospital room! Grrr).
for myself, rather than toss all of the neb vials and prescription bottles, I’ve been keeping them in a bag as a visual reminder of what a pain in the butt the last week has been. Maybe it’s my own way of telling my stubborn pig headed mind, yes, you got seriously sick, you’re on powerful medications, it’s ok to slow down, get off the carousel of life and focus on self care. Qid nebbing generates a lot of work and wrappers and vials, ugh! I have a bigger bin in my closet with all of the other junk from the last 3 months (steroids, abx, nasal steroids, puffers galore). I’m so sorry greenpeace! I’ll plant 5 trees once the lungs stop being little turds.
Hoping for spring and a better 2019, what a Bear!